Guardian, guide & Protector
I awoke in a dark room, laying in my bed as if waking from sleep itself, I instinctually got out of the bed and walked out of my bedroom door and shut it behind me, I waked into a small square like kitchen with walls of cabinets that went all the way to the top of an impossibly tall roof, I gasped in shock as I saw a handsome man sitting on the counter looking down , perhaps in thought as he “waited” for me to discover him.
He was tall well built with lightly tanned skin, dark glossy chocolate brown hair cut in a short shaggy style, his eyes a shifting blue/green color, a mischievous smile beneath rosy, pink lips.
His voice an indescribable, masculine yet soft tone captured me in its grasp.
He sat there still looking down for a moment then he looked up at me as I stood in shock, I noticed as he moved his body broke off in miniscule fragments like glittering pieces of sand floating all around him in the air of the room, I could nearly hear the small pings like tiny pieces of glass that fell to the floor as they moved.
“what are you doing here?” I asked the first one to break this curious silence, he hopped down from the counter and stood quite a bit taller than me as he slowly in the most unnerving way made his way to me stopping Infront of me “I’m here to guide and protect you” his voice caused a tightness in my chest feeling like my heart would stop instantly as he looked down at me with a seriousness in his eyes that seemed like a small warning, to not take things too far, yet within these same eyes a mischief shone through the seriousness, his playfulness enjoying my awe.
We had many conversations many of which I can only remember pieces and flashes of I asked may question which he calmly answered till I reached for something on the counter, a knife just to gently touch the edge curiously “snapping me out of my curiosity he said “don’t do that, irresponsible” I supposed I wanted to see if everything was real in the dream.
In a flash he stood with but an inch between us and only looked in my eyes asif trying to convey a message, I could feel it, just like I could feel everything about him, I could feel his existence, his emotions, his intentions and unspoken words.
We had always had to be close to one another to silence the incessant heartbeat like beating and buzzing between us, as he stood closer a sudden peace and calmness befell the room, the universe was finally calm and all things were at peace…for but a moment: my mother suddenly walked into the living room from the bedroom and asked me what I was doing, I jumped in surprise and he stepped backwards as if shrinking into the background as to not be seen, though she nor anyone could lay eyes upon him but me, yet he still hid so that I would not give his presence away.
The dream changed and we were in the arcade of a movie theater, I recognized it from another dream but couldn’t quite pinpoint it, I was looking around in awe trying remember from where I had last seen it, I recognized some of the prizes in the claw machine, as I looked in awe I saw him smirking at me watching me as if watching a child discovering the world.
Sounds went off all around, games, prize machines, a snack bar filled with food and slushy machines my absolute favorite, I ran up to it and saw strange flavors like, bubblegum strawberry and a purple blue label I could not read.
He watched as I ran around like a little kid looking at all of these things that brought me joy, from this I only remember him telling me about the movie theater that it was old and not used very much anymore, though it looked like a place that many people had come and gone through many times in just that day , yet there was not a hair out of place, It was immaculate …perfect, pandemonium.
I only remember his eyes, always softly watching me with a fondness and a small smile slightly hidden at the corner of his lips.
The last of our encounters was in the kitchen where he told me he had to go and I knew it was time to return to my son and husband, it was just a knowing Id had, I felt his desire to get close to me again, if only to silence the buzzing for a moment but as he is , his restraint strong and unwavering, he knew better and gave me a nod then left.
My eyes suddenly snapped open, and I breathed as if I had been holding my breath on the way back.
Author N.P
Note: that none of these images are my own, only used as the closest visual descriptors of what I’ve seen In my “dreams” (collected from Pinterest)